Dark Days

This Saturday will mark a year since my blood clot first made itself known. Thinking on this I realized that the markers in my life always refer back to dark days, hard times, or difficult situations. The times in my life that were memorable or marked a change of season in my life have always been times of trouble, pain, or loss. This is not by choice, but just a matter of fact of my life. This is not a lament on my part but a recognition of that fact.

I have long since given up any hope or desire to have any say or control of my life. It is not that I do not wish to be able to plan my life, but a few years back God hit the reset button and since then any attempt to "control" my situation has resulted in futility. So, I submit myself to God and to whatever He brings into my life, good or bad.

My health and mobility have suffered greatly over the last few years due to stress and health related issues. The blood clot alone immobilized me almost entirely for a couple of months and I was severely restricted in the ability to walk for at least four months. Along with that I now have a knee that loves to feel like it may pop out of joint at any moment.

Yesterday, however, I "played" basketball for the first time in years. The goal at the Y was low enough for me to dunk flat footed and some of the middle school kids wanted to play me. I enlisted the help of one of the counselors at the Y as a team mate because she is great at basketball. We raised the goal back to its regular height and started. It wasn't pretty or very effective, but I did move with more haste than a walk! In the end we plastered the kids pretty well.

I bring this up because God has everything covered! I needed my health to improve, yet have no way of "exercising" here at the house nor of affording a gym membership. Yet I loved to play basketball as a kid and with my job at the Y I get to play a little everyday. This has made an improvement in my overall strength and ability to move and I expect it to continue to get better.

Those whom God has given the ability to choose what they want in life may not understand this, but that is ok. This is my Journey and God has seen fit to guide me down this path. For now, I am thankful that I can still play basketball and hope that one day soon my life may be marked by times of change that result in better days and good times.

For His Glory,

DH